lost years

the last time I left a message here, this blog space looked different.

it was a different life. I was married and trying to have a family and now I'm a widow considering the time, many decades hopefully, that I have left.

I'm still full of hope. That life has meaning, that there are other legacies besides a child. But it's taken me so many years just to remember this side of myself, it makes me wonder what else I've forgotten about myself and who I wanted to be before I fell in love.

maybe I'm exactly who I've always been...and that will never change?

I'll definitely spend more time thinking through these lost years in hopes I can help others like me.

--B